Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Dartboard

Today, I was reminded again of some of the best advice Mom has ever given me.


It was an absolutely beautiful day. I had a wonderful time at the social last night. Woke up and went to all of my classes. Then spent what should have been a meaningless afternoon running errands with my boyfriend, but turned into such a fun couple of hours being with him and enjoying the weather. Chapter was just a paper chapter. I got to play with my nieces (the puppies), and Julia and I went over to the boys house to have steaks for dinner. Complete and total blissful, enjoyable day. 


But this morning I got all stressed out and worked up over my classes, how busy I am, and all the things I had to get done. And then tonight, some silly girl got under my skin and caused a little tension in my relationship. Just stupid little annoyances...just darts.


Whenever I'd had a perfect day and dumb little things brought me down, Mom always told me that it was just Satan throwing darts at me. It was his way of trying to ruin my happiness and good mood. It was his way of trying to bring me down and give me a sour attitude. But Mom always said I had to tell him no. Tell him that I wasn't going to take it. I won't put up with his darts, and I won't let them hurt me. 


So today was one of those days when I was the dartboard. Today I let Satan get a few stabs in. I let him make me feel discouraged, frustrated, and just plain not good enough. I let him bring me down, and I let him take away from the wonderful day I had filled with beautiful weather, lots of laughs, and some of the best people I could ask for. It's so important to remember that we do have an enemy, and that he does not want to see us happy. He does not want to see us glorify God, nor does he want God's light to shine through us. So it's important when we are the dartboard, to catch those darts and tell Satan no. It's important not to let him in and allow ourselves to have those perfect days. After all, I truly am much too blessed to be stressed. :)


"Don't take much for this crazy world to rob me of my peace, and the enemy of my soul says You're holding out on me. So I stand here lifting empty hands for You to fill me up again." -Francesca Battistelli

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Love never fails.

I have so much on my mind today that one blog post could never encompass it all. My heart is overflowing with so many different emotions, and God has truly brought me to my knees today. 


It has been such a fun weekend, and today was an absolutely gorgeous day. I've had a to-do list a mile long, but I decided to take a break, watch the sunset out on the porch, and hang out with God. Best idea ever. 


Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. -John 14:27




And in that hour out on the porch, I was consumed by God's presence, and His peace. All the crappy things of the past week just melted away, and He reminded me that He is still here. 




I became so absorbed in Captivating and covered at least 5 sections tonight, as opposed to the usual one a night. Then, I opened up my Bible and decided to read Ruth's story again. With tonight being Valentine's Eve, love has been on my mind as I'm sure it has everyone else's, so Ruth's story was the perfect one for tonight. There have been Bible study after Bible study about Ruth. Did you know that there are only five women listed in the genealogy of Jesus? And did you know that there are only two books of the Bible named after women?


Anyways....I typed up a huge blog post after this point....and erased it all. 





Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. 
1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Learn it, love it, live it.

Happy Valentine's Day :) 

Monday, February 7, 2011

Ignorance is bliss

It's happened to all of us - the moment after you hear some bad news when you want to go curl up in a corner. The few seconds of dread that linger after hearing the angst in someone's voice after they tell you that there's is something they need to tell you. Then there is the aftermath, the confusion, the sadness, the anger, the emotion. All of these things are so unwelcome and unwanted, yet you got it anyway.

 So maybe ignorance really is bliss. 

It's in these moments when you wish that you'd never heard what you heard. It's these moments when you'd rather not know the truth and save yourself the pain that came with it. One minute you're on top of the world, and the next, it gets yanked right out from under you. Sure, it was the right thing to do, and sure you deserved to know, but if you were happy not knowing, then is it really necessary? Is it better to know the truth? Or to go on ignorant and naive, but happy and content?

What you don't know won't hurt you...or will it?




"Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out, and a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told. Some doors, once they're opened, can never be closed again, just as some trust, once it's been lost, can never be won back."  -Alice Hoffman, Blue Diary

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Positive Polly in a Negative Nancy World

Today started off as a series of unfortunate events. 

Was one point away from an 80 on my organic lab safety quiz and forgot to take it again before the deadline, so I had to go to campus early to retake it on paper. 
It was below freezing and raining.
Then, I got into lab and didn't have my lab key. 
That'd be a minus five points.
My stupid drying agent kept clumping even after about 10 scoops.
The results of the experiment are probably completely screwed.
But that's really it. In a bad mood because of a few things that were so small.


Just a rough start to the morning. 

But the parts of the morning I left out were...
My sweet boyfriend drove me to campus early so that I didn't have to walk in the freezing rain. 
Brandon is one of the lab TA's, and he txted me this morning telling me to come early so that I wouldn't have to miss part of my lab. 
Also, because Brandon is a TA, my -5 points sheet mysteriously disappeared, and he unlocked my lab drawer with no penalty. 
Once again being a sweet boyfriend, Robert also tried to bring me my lab key, even though he came at 12:30, and my lab started at 12...he tried. 


Things that matter, things that don't.

God is constantly reminding me of how lucky I am. All of the tiny things that put me in a bad mood were fixed. For every bad thing that happened, something good happened. But I still allowed myself to turn into a Negative Nancy. It's so easy to let small things affect your attitude. What's most important is to continually remember that things really could be worse, and the very things that you are upset over are totally insignificant. The things that matter are the things that mean something. The kindness that a friend or boyfriend shows, texting you to tell you not to have a bad day and to cheer up or trying to bring you your lab key even though your lab started thirty minutes earlier. What matters is that I'm alive, healthy, and surrounded by people who love and care for me. There are so many people in this world, country, state, and even city who woke up this morning and had a much worse morning than I did. 

People went hungry today. People had no home to get out of the rain and cold today. People couldn't see the rain or hear it on the roof. People were busy working because they couldn't afford college today. People were fighting for our country today. People were missing those people today. People lost a loved one today, and people died today. 

So even in the midst of a bad attitude this morning, God continued to amaze me and reminded me just how lucky and blessed I truly am. 

Today, I am most thankful for the ability to get up and go to classes or labs and the opportunity to go to such a wonderful school. I'm thankful for the ability to see, hear, and even walk. I'm thankful for my parents who answer the phone no matter what it is I'm calling about, and who make me believe that a 78 on a physics test is a good thing. I'm thankful for friends who texted me yesterday to wish me good luck on a test and for those that texted me to cheer me up after reading my last tweet. I'm thankful that I'm still so close to all of my old friends, and I'm so thankful that I've gotten the chance to make some amazing new ones lately. I'm thankful for my first love. He taught me how not to love someone, but ultimately he taught me how I should love someone. I'm thankful that I've found a new boyfriend that knows ''love'' scares me and is patient with me anyway, that makes me laugh every time we're together, and that will be my slave for a week when I beat him on our physics test. 
And most of all, I'm thankful that as I'm typing this and as I go to sleep tonight, I'll be smiling. 

When you take the time to continually count your blessings, you'll be amazed at the realization of just how lucky you are, and you can't help but be happy.